One Year ago today

I can't believe it's been a year already. I've signed and sent away all the necessary paperwork for my recipient to be able to access my information, and perhaps initiate contact. I don't know if that's what she'll choose to do, but I want her to be able to access me if that's her wish.

There hasn't been a day, not one, where she didn't cross my mind. I hope she is well, as I know this has been a rocky year for her, according to the updates.

A lot of people ask me what I would say to her if I ever met her. Honestly, I don't know that I could speak. I would probably cry. I know I would definitely say thank you. Thank you for helping me appreciate how lucky I am to wake up every morning without pain. Thank you for helping me see that each day is a gift. Thank you for letting me be a part of something so huge. Thank you for helping me realize that I can do something completely selfless, with no reward to myself, and feel so completely good about it. Thank you, everyday, for still fighting; carrying my rich healthy marrow inside your body. We will always be a part of each other.

I really don't know. There are so many things I want to say to her... but more than anything I want her to be healthy.


I guess maybe I'm not making any sense here. There are so many emotions I have, and I'm having difficulty translating them. But I am thinking back to a year ago today; thankful for such a honor.