The Beginning of Wednesday: Love:Hate

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Love:Hate

So, I have to say, I am a little bit depressed today. Aaron will be gone when I get home from work. He is being flown to Austin, Texas for 2 races this weekend.

Don't get me wrong, I am so happy he has this experience, he is able to do this, he is in a league where people want him to do this, and he gets to explore so many different parts of our country.

But still, this can be a lonely and time consuming sport.

I am so proud of him when he races. I am happy he is in such great health. I LOVE his motivation and his drive. I adore his teammates.

I get discouraged with the fact that more weekends than not we are going to bike races. I hate that he was in NJ this year when I went to my family's camp in Maine over Memorial Day. I love to see the different parts of the country that we are always traveling to. I love being at his races to support him. I love that we go away almost every weekend and find some new adventure. I hate that we are never home. I hate that sometimes he has to go without me. I love that I have alone time to be with myself and my girlfriends. I miss him when he's gone.

I love cycling AND I hate cycling.

3 comments:

Jessi said...: Texas is known for its turquois jewelry. He had better bring me home a prize ;); June 19, 2008 at 8:20 AM
Nicki said...: LOL I bet he will. and I 100% know how you feel :) you can always come here this weekend, you know you can pack up the boys and drive here, you have the gps now ;); June 19, 2008 at 11:03 AM
Aaron said...: I already have a prize or 2 picked out. And so everyone knows I HATE being away from the love of my life but I LOVE racing my bike because I like to make my baby proud of me.; June 21, 2008 at 5:13 PM

Quotes that define my life:

"Now this is the Law of the Jungle -- as old and as true as the sky; And the Wolf that shall keep it may prosper, but the Wolf that shall break it must die. As the creeper that girdles the tree-trunk the Law runneth forward and back -- For the strength of the Pack is the Wolf, and the strength of the Wolf is the Pack." -- Rudyard Kipling
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." -- Dr. Seuss
"He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog. You are his life, his love, his leader. He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart. You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion." -- Unknown
"Better to love God and die unknown than to love the world and be a hero; better to be content with poverty than to die a slave to wealth; better to have taken some risks and lost than to have done nothing and succeeded at it." -- E. Lutzer
“There is pleasure in the pathless woods, There is rapture on the lonely shore, There is society where none intrudes, By the deep sea and the music in its roar; I love not man the less, but Nature more.” -- Lord Byron
"There are times when explanations, no matter how reasonable, just don't seem to help." -- Mr. Rogers
"If you don't crack the shell, you can't eat the nut." -- Persian Proverb
"Real peace is not the absence of conflict, but the presence of justice." Martin Luther King, Jr.

Mountains we climb

+ Currently: Life
+ Magalloway Mountain: Pittsburg, NH: 3,350 ft. Fire tower @ summit
+ Uncanoonuc Mountains: Goffstown, NH; Elevation: North Peak 1,324 ft. South Peak, 1,321 ft. *Indian Translation: "woman lying down" or "breasts"*
+ Mt. Major: Alton Bay, NH: Approx 4 mi. round trip; 1,100 ft. @ summit.
+ Monument Mt., Berkshire Area, MA: Approx 3 mi. round trip; *Beautiful waterfall* 1,735 ft @ summit.
+ Welch-Dickey- Loop Trail, Waterville Valley Area: 4.4 mi. round trip; 2,605 ft. @ Welch summit, 2,734 ft. @ Dickey summit.
+ Mt. Kearsarge- Barlow Trail, Winslow State Park, Wilmot: 2.8 mi. round trip; 2,937 ft @ summit.
+ Mt. Monadnock- White Dot Trail, Jaffrey: 4.2 mi. round trip, 3,165 ft. @ summit
+ Mt. Layafette- Old Bridle Path, Franconia Notch State Park: 8 mi. round trip, 5,260 ft @ summit.
+ Mt. Cardigan- East Side Loop, Alexandria: 5.3 mi. round trip, 3,121 ft @ summit. * some of the mountain was left bare from a fire in 1855
+ Mt. Morgan & Mt. Percival- Squaw Mountains, Holderness & Center Sandwich: 5.1 mi. round trip; 2,220 & 2,212 ft. @ summit
+ Mt. Osceola- White Mountain National Forest: 6.4 mi. round trip, 4,340 ft. @ summit

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